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一个枉自嗟呀，一个空劳牵挂。
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若说没奇缘，
今生ååˆé‡ç€å¥¹ã€‚
若说有奇缘，
如何心事终虚化。。。
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Tuesday, November 28, 2006
8:06 PM
A funny thing about a person's memory is: you forget the things you want to remember and you remember the things you'll do anything to forget.
It's been almost 4 years since she has gone. I'm slowly forgeting how she looks like no matter how hard I tried not to forget. All the years of memories of being together, how I always find comfort in her arms, the smells of her cooking, the songs she sang to me to lull me to sleep, the days following her around at the market and china town. All these are slipping away from me no matter how hard I try to hold on.
On the other side, no matter how hard I try to forget her, her face always manage to force into my mind. Her voice, her scent, the touch of her hand. Everything she has ever touched, every place we have ever been together, simply forces all the suppressed thoughts and feelings back up. Alcohol helps to make it less painful. But is that the way it should be?
How do I forget? I can I not forget?
Been checking out camera forums all week looking for a 2nd hand DSLR. Was influenced by Sameul who bought one with just over $600.
Really missed the days where I can take my boss's cameras and have a day shooting at botanic gardens or the zoo. It's my way of temporarily escaping from reality and getting away from it all.
spent days bargaining and bidding for good deals. Finally found a D70S with cf card and 50mm f1.9 lens and 2yrs warrenty for just $850. Backed out the last min. If I buy this now. I'll be absolutely broke. Can't find work during December due to fyp. will need savings to tide me through this. Sigh... Should have saved more when I had the chance...
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
10:55 PM
Something my dad told me when I was young popped up in my head recently:
君子之交淡如水。能交到知己好友，就要珍惜。但如果觉得这朋友不值得交，就不要拖泥带水，最终害了自己。
Thursday, November 09, 2006
12:27 AM
got work to do. but brain dead at the moment. so give myself 10min break to blog.
Dunno whether anyone else has this experience. Have you ever have this song that is embedded in your head all your life? You don't know the name of the song, who sang it or even where you have heard it. You only know bits and pieces of the lyrics and the tune just pops into your head once in awhile, all your life.
I have been puzzled by this unknown song in my head ever since I was old enough to find it weird to have a song u dun even know where u heard it poping into your head time and again. But I didn't really make an effort to find out the name of the song cus I have nothing to work with at all. Finally a few days ago, i was in one of those pirated stores in Johor and that song is playing over the speakers. I finally decided to get to the bottom of this. I memorised a few lines of the lyrics and searched them over baidu. Finally mystery solved. It's a song by this old band called 太极. It's just so satisfying to finally solve something that has been bothering me for so many years. One mystry still remains though, I have never listened to this band before, and I still have no idea where I've heard this song from. Oh well, 知足者长乐。。
【演唱】:太极乐队
【专辑】:一伍壹拾(15周年新曲+精选)-1999
每一句说话
曲: 太极/周启生
词: 因葵
编: 太极
曾遇挫折失败
旁人不理我呼嗌
全因你某天舒我愁怀
我已深深了解
但你忘情将爱活埋
何解不理这心态
还请紧记车厢中拥吻
I Will Love You Till I Die
无缘无份 怎可分解
痴心一片 原是孽债
悠悠长夜 记起每句说话
How I Love You My Darling
How I Miss You
宁愿永远失败
来填补对你的债
仍想起某天几段情怀
I Still Love You Till I Die
Thursday, November 02, 2006
5:50 PM
So long never blog liao. Been busy, very busy. So busy that I couldn't meet one of my best and oldest friends before he flies off, that I have to keep pushing back a meeting with another best friend even though it was me who asked him for the favour. It just feels so bad to let down the people close to you.
Bad luck has been trailing behind me this past few weeks. Lost a pencil case I liked very much. I bought another one and lost it the very next day along with my ipod and a 1gb thumbdrive I just bought in a cab, most importantly I've lost my organiser which contains all the receipts to be reimbursed as well as all my schedules and contact information. Been investing alot of time and money on my corporate projects which have not paid up yet. Also have to work extra hard to come up with the money for FYP which is going to start production soon, which means I have to neglect my school work and FYP planning even further.
What's worse, I'm feeling that my fuel is running out again. The dangerous thought of putting everything aside and not think is slowly creeping in. This is definitely not the time to shut down. Been trying to take breaks every now and then to recharge and pace myself but it doesn't seem to be working. Just not my working style. Just hope that this low period will go away fast so i can work like there's no tomorrow again.
Been really frustrated with the new D9 camera i'm using lately. Trying to understand a new camera is like trying to understand a woman. You have to go thru so much trial and error to understand it: the controls, the features, the weight, how much light it needs to give a decent picture, the capabilities and minimum focal distance of the lens. And I just simply hate it when the picture turns out bad and I know I can do so much better. Why can the focus still go off when I check the focusing like 10 times throughout the interview? Why is it still overexposed when the zebras are telling me it's perfectly fine? Now I understand why some videographers simply refuse to use any camera other than their own. Or is it just my incompetence to adapt.
on a lighter note, moved in to my new hall and met my new roommate. A very nice and friendly guy. Kind of young though. Reminds me of how I was like years back. Simply love my hall. It's not just the location near the school, but the stray cats that roam about at night. Some of them are not afraid of humans at all. You can just pat and play with it and it will not run off. I would always put my hand near the ground and the cats would come over thinking I have food in my hands. Felt very guilty that I always disappoint them so I bought some cat food and carry it with me whenever I can. But strangely, I didn't see any cats whenever I have food with me. Then one magical moment last night I saw a cat while coming back from editing. Opening the packet of tuna, I got the cat eating it from my hands. Feeling? indescribeable. My laptop case and hands reek of tuna for quite awhile. It's worth it.
the unwanted
the story
the angels
the melody